Human Conditioning: Served With A Side Of Hate

Some believe that what I experienced was a hate crime, and it was in a sense. But, no one shouted racial, gender specific, religious or sexual preference epithets at me, for the most part, and no one ever had to. Hate is a very delicate and personal feeling. Hate has no rule other than that the hater must choose something either real or imagined to despise a group or individual. It's all in the mind of the hater.



Famous haters include, but are not limited to, so many diverse groups of seemingly normal people. Normal in itself is abnormal depending on which side of the looking glass one is on. Yet, people are still amazed by hate crimes. The exaggeration in differences real or perceived are always dangerous to those small in mind. Hating others because of their religious choice, gender, culture, ethnicity, speech, education, color, sexual orientation, socioeconomic status, attire, physical appearance, disability or advantage is a favorite of the tiny of mind.



Tiny minded, evolve already! Why do the tiny minded continue to flourish and wreak havoc on the world? It has never been about hating the game over the player, as there would be no game without the players. Hate is the sickest game anyone can play yet everyone on one level or another plays into it, just not everyone is willing to go to the extremes of destroying some one's life or full out genocide. Yet, Evey bit of hate hurts.



I came to the Internet to try and expose a crime that does not discriminate in it's victims. I came to the Internet to expose a bunch of depraved people for their actions. The people who assisted in what happened to me were not all just the jerks next door. These people were cops, FBI agents, college professors, government researchers and military, that hid behind everyday people by using other people to assist them. These people are about doing terrible things to people because they can and must.



I am not the only victim of what is known on the Internet by a few names like "gangstalking", but I was a very special target of the crime. I have personally known other victims of this crime, but none of them had entire websites created about them in the name of "gangstalking". I thought that in coming to the Internet and telling people what happened to me I would be making it easier for other victims to come forward and speak up about what happened to them.



Some refer to gangstalking as being a type of bullying, but it's not really that innocent. Bullying is much safer. Gangstalking victims are rarely harassed by the same individuals, and red flag words are rarely spoken to people who are victims, in the form of harassment. No one will break any laws that are obvious in attacking a victim until no one believes that a crime is taking place. When no one believes the victim is when he/she becomes the most vulnerable.



Victims are often harassed mentally and physically in strange ways that accumulate over time. Some victims have had their homes and cars broken into, but items taken are too petty to involve a serious investigation by law enforcement, because nothing of value is rarely taken and no signs of forced entry exists. The perpetrators often have keys or lock picking equipment. Alarms also don't help, because they aren't regular people. If a victim calls the police to report a break in the police are going to come out, but when they arrive and find out that there are no signs of forced entry and the only items missing are small items that could be misplaced like a document, TV remote and silverware then the cops are going to say the victim is crazy!



Now, the victims didn't lie, and they did exactly what the criminals wanted them to do, which was to make themselves look like an ass. The criminals come back several times to do the same spontaneous debauchery by breaking into the victims home to steal all their staples or finish taking their last silverware, and in doing so, leave the victim to know that they have entered their home and their isn't shit that can be done. If the victim has been worried enough to continue to call the authorities, then their screwed, because now they seem like a paranoid nut who obviously needs help but is doing it for the attention. That's just one psychological game that is played in gangstalking, but their are many more. Once the victim knows that they are not safe in their own home and that the police will not assist the real crimes begin.



I'm sure that people read what I write and say hey this chic is either really creative or really psycho, but everything I write is based on facts and truths, I will tell no lies on this, so help me God.



Their is another technique used in gangstalking that is called "gaslighting", that takes it's name from a 1940's film of the same name. The technique is used to make a victim doubt themselves and believe they are crazy. The techniques of gangstalking are so stupid that they obviously were thought of by very intelligent idiots. Yes, these people are intelligent but they are also morons.



First rule of mental instability/insanity is that crazy people never think they are crazy, just like drug addicts and alcoholics never think they have a problem. If a person begins to think that what they are experiencing is a sign that they are gaining a mental illness, chances are they are not mentally ill. But, in gaslighting the goal is to do just that by "conditioning" a victim to fear and doubt. Victims may be followed by certain cars of certain colors at certain times of the day when a victim is alone the most. If a victim stops being alone and tries to show someone else the cars will stop and change to a different schedule or shade. All of this is childish but it is meant to make the victim wonder because, they have no idea why they are being followed or why anyone is repeatedly following them everywhere they go and the police won't help. And, still there are many many more techniques used that are just as effective for "conditioning" some just as asinine, while others are life threatening. Some victims, including myself, have had attempts on their lives.



I wonder if any of this is actually getting through to people or if all this is a waste of time. This can happen to anyone at anytime because no victim has been believed, or most give up the fight out of shame and ridicule. I'm not a shy person, nor have I ever been, and I don't plan to back down from standing up against people who abuse power to play games that destroy families and lives. People have committed suicide over these psychological and physical attacks, because they can continue for years. It is a perfect crime, if the criminals can remain anonymous. In my case the only anonymous individuals are the ones I haven't named. I know who conspired against me, and they think I'm too scared or embarrassed to tell. Yet, I only get one chance to finger them and my evidence had better be 100%, as their credibility alone could blow me out the waters.



If someone turns in a cop that is crooked without proper evidence, who will believe the allegations? Report a doctor for misconduct without enough evidence and what will be done? Blow the whistle on a crooked politician, but what will it matter without evidence? There is no shortage of crooked people in the world. There is only a shortage of people who are willing to believe that these people are doing wrong in the first place. The deeds of the wicked are always seen and heard, but the reports of such deeds are often overlooked based on status or fear. People are always reporting high crimes, abuses of power and misconduct but who listens when the perpetrator is in a status of power. That is a concept that people, regardless of where they live in the world should understand. For example, look how long it took the world to believe that molestation of young boys in the Catholic Church by Catholic priest was a problem? If it was not for the media, Internet and the access to information today, the Catholic Church would have continued to hide the truth as they had done for centuries.



Information is power, and all I have done here is provide information that is based in fact and truth that was meant to empower others. Anyone who has or will ever take the time to read my wall will be better off for it, because of the information here. My campaign has always been to enlighten people by exposing the truths hidden in the dark. What happened to me takes place all over the world. People abuse power everyday, and many more people suffer for it. In every country across the globe people are denied rights, protections and freedoms at the hands of those who abuse the powers they wield.



I live in a country that is so prized the world round for the democracy, freedom and opportunities given to, not only it's citizens, but to those who set foot on it's land. People come to the United Stated from all over the world for the wonderful gifts of free education, religious freedom, freedom of expression, employment, housing etc. No where else in the world can an individual come into a foreign country with nothing more than the clothes on their back and be faced with such opportunities. Yet, at the same time such freedoms have a price, and the United States has a history of certain behaviors.



I have not read much of the documents from the Wiki Leaks scandal involving U.S. wires, but what I have read seems to be calculated in it's release to the public. The Wiki Leaks I have read involve leaders of non U.S. countries and territories asking the U.S. for backroom deals against nations that these non U.S. leaders oppose, and the U.S. has declined such backroom assistance, but the U.S. has also had a mysterious breach in security that has let hundreds of incriminating cable wires loose into the information arena. Those incriminating cable wires put the truth into light about how smaller nations wish to use the U.S. as "Big Brother" to protect their "ass"ets, but also how these smaller nations want to keep face and not start wars they aren't prepared to fight without "Big Brother".



Now, other nations know the true thoughts of their foes, and now decisions have to be made based on those truths. It was kind of like going to the most popular and influential person in the room and telling them how much you hate someone else in the room, then another person does the same and so on, then when that influential and powerful person spills the beans, everyone is shocked at what the other has said and anger ensues, while the influential and powerful person walks out of the room leaving tensions to build.



The Wiki Leaks were no mistake. If those leaks were not calculated then it was pure Divine intervention, and it was the hand of God exposing the truth. As much as I believe in God, I also believe in power plays, and the Wiki Leaks scandal looks like classic power plays to pit people against one another by an excellent puppeteer. The United States has no qualms in sacrificing anyone for the greater good/goal. I write all this as a citizen of this country who had to see that even today with all the information available that secrets are kept, and that people like me are used for the greater goal. There are not many people inside or outside of this country that would challenge the police or the FBI on their own, as I have. I have committed no crime, yet I can be subjected to high harassment. Thanks you to all those who voted for the Patriot Act (sarcasm). I'm in America where I can take on the authorities at my own risk as a right, not everyone around the world has such a privilege, and I know that, but it still has a price to use.


How many of you could be followed everywhere you went 24 hours a day by teams of people only to go to law enforcement to find out that they are in on it? How many of you could walk into an FBI office only to find out that your reason for coming is known before you give your report, and then you are told no one is going to help you? Who among you would continue to fight for your freedoms when clearly the odds are above you and people in power are opposed to helping you? What would any of you do if someone threatened your life, not in words, but in the act of trying to kill you, yet the authorities look the other way? How many of you could walk in my shoes? Lucky for all of you, most of you will never have to, because I am willing to tell all the truth behind the lies, and how the game is played, all the way down to it's players to help spread some awareness.



I'm the one who has lost and sacrificed a lot just to be here writing this. None of you know me, but you know my works, words, and thoughts by way of others who have found my words, works, and thoughts useful to their endeavors. This crime has happened to others, but not quite like it has happened to me.



My wall states that I am suicidal, but not that I am afraid. I fear nothing and no one. I will kill myself not because I am filled with shame, remorse, fear or sadness, but because I refuse to live a life where others have the power to continue to sacrifice my life for there quest. I will not live my life as a research pet, and I'm sure that if any one of you walked in my shoes you would have similar feelings. But, I also never said if I would be the only one partaking in the departure.



None of you have walked in my shoes, and I know that because of this, it is easy to judge me in my words and my actions. Surely I am the one to be judged here, as I have put my life out in the open to help save others. Maybe I am stupid to care so much for strangers that I am willing to expose my experience in order to bring the deeds done in darkness into the light, so that there are no more victims.



Yes, maybe my desire to help others to avoid what I have gone through is my biggest mistake. Maybe I should never have come to the Internet to spread information about things that are meant to remain unknown to the public. Only could you truly ever know by experience, and believe it or not I love all of you more than that, even though I know many of you are only here to see me die. And, don't worry, you will get your wish soon enough.



I am anonymous because I too represent the thousands of anonymous victims of this psychological and physical crime. I don't want people to get caught up in the trivial (race/religion/etc) and not see the true cause. I will step out of the shadows soon, as I am no coward. I don't want anyone to experience my experience or know the hurt that I do by whatever means it takes.



Before I die, I will, in someway, make this world a better place than it is now. Something significant is going to take place very soon, and I hope you are all around to see it, and I hope you choose the right side.



Those good of heart and mind always hold more power than those who are not. If your heart is with God or at least your actions are pure (if you don't follow God) please do what you can beyond yourself to make this world a place where evil has no place to hide, as we are all here together. There are a lot of voices to be heard, and so many are speaking the same words, saying the differences really are much smaller than all the similarities we share. There is only one human race, and we must all finish it together.